frustrated

Posted by chiklet at 10:40 AM on August 4, 2011.

i feel stupid and i can't move on about it. why do i always screw up? why am i the only one who always seem to be messing up. all my efforts always end up in trash. do i not pray hard enough? i'm mad. i'm disappointed. i'm frustrated. i want to quit. and it sucks that i can't. i'm stuck in this and i have to bear it til the end--worse i'd still be alive to witness it all. i wish there's some kind of a fast forward button somewhere, just to get it over with already. not even asking for a reset, or rewind... i just want to skip this already.

i can't find anybody to blame. and it sucks even more. i want to strangle that bitch, but what wrong did she do? i was the one who was stupid, not her. all she did was to rub it in my face. i want to blame God, i prayed, remember? and yet i still ended up as a loser, trapped in an impasse where i can neither go back nor move on. but of course, i know i can't blame Him. He had always paved the way for me, this one was my own fault. 

so i'm left with blaming myself. for being stupid. for screwing up. for always messing up.

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toothache

Posted by chiklet at 01:31 AM on July 17, 2007.

mas masaklap pa kesa sa pagkawala ng g tech pen ko last week na bumubuhay sa akin tuwing oras ng klase.

mas nakakainis pa kesa sa pagkaka-alam ng katotohanang mabagal ang broadband kesa sa dsl.

... mas masakit pa kesa sa pag-uupload niya ng private photo na pinaghihinalaan kong photo niya at ng kanyang.

yun lang. 

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Posted by chiklet at 10:24 AM on July 7, 2007.

summer's over. my gulay back tor reality. 

budget issues.

wala na kong pera umpisa palang ng month kamusta naman yun. daming binayaran (photocopies. books. tax sa org. membership fee sa org. photocopies. and a bunch of other stuffs i can't remember.) buti nalang nakabili na ko ng pangarap kong jacket. harhar. luho muna before anything else. too bad nde ako makakanood ng harry potter sa moviehouse (ehem... i'm still keeping my fingers crossed though baka sakaling may manlibre ).

3 days lang ang class, whole day nga lang. kala ko tipid na ko kaso nde parin kasi may nadagdag pang isang meeting on tuesdays for thesis. gulay talaga. i-stretch ang budget. kung kelan konti ang school days saka ko nakaranas ng ganito e kung tutuusin dapat malakas ang kickback. nyahahaha...

well anyway... love issues naman.

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and that's that.

oh well, kahit vacant e masaya parin.. harhar. carry lang.

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hay.. bakasyon na nga talaga

Posted by chiklet at 06:09 PM on April 11, 2007.

grabe. bakasyon na nga talaga, wala na kong ginagawa at wala rin akog dapat gawin. nakakapanibago. bwahahahaha... tipong parang last month lang e halos hindi na ko matulog dahil sunod sunod ang deadline ng papers, tapos sabayan pa ng quiz.. tapos all of a sudden tapos na lahat. grades nalang ang inaantay.

pero nakuha ko narin ung grades a day before kuhaan ng clearance (which was last week) at sobrang nakahinga ako ng maluwag after finding out that i actually made it through second sem without dreadful grades.

school year 2006-2007's actually pretty good.

onwards to my final year... aw...

this is my last summer vacation as a student (unless of course i fail next year). scary thought. next year i'll be looking for a job. that is, if i won't make to to lawschool. wahahaha...

libre naman mangarap e.

Currently listening to: air supply
Currently reading: i ain't readin'! hahaha..
Currently feeling: complacent

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mark this date.

Posted by chiklet at 08:46 PM on March 30, 2007.

masaya nanaman ako. hehehe... pero nakakainis lang kasi sigurado akong bukas,.. o sa isang bukas e broken hearted nanaman ako. naku, saulo ko na yung mga ganitong pagkakataon. nakakainis lang talaga dahil nde parin akong pinagpapalang maging manhid na. naks. drama. pero pramis, totoo yan.

the one who can make you most happy, isa also capable of hurting you most.

nde ko maalala san ko nakuha yang kowt na yan pero nde orig yan. text msg ata ko nahugot yan. hahaha.. makes sense, though.

pessimistic talaga ako. but then again, reality isn't always sweet.

don't get me wrong ha, masaya talaga ako ngayun, overflowing nga e. kung baga e mine-mellow ko lang ang kasiyahan ko baka sumabog na ko e. hahaha..

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